Successes and Failures

Thirteen days ago I reached a new benchmark, and I was so proud of myself. I weighed 129 pounds, and had lost a total of 60 pounds.

What has happened since then?

I've entered a slump. A seven-pound slump. Yes, I gained seven pounds since then.

It all started when . . .

                                  I decided that in order to meet a deadline for work, I would not go to the gym for a week. I told myself that I would still eat relatively healthy.  I kept the idea of doing a WOD at home in the back of my mind. Each day, as soon as I came home from work, I worked, worked, worked until midnight, sometimes 2am. I realized that I had no time to cook. So we ordered out. The first night was a harmless indulgence that I allow myself once a week- carne asada tacos, with only guacamole on them. The next night, Reggie made us eggs and sausage. By the middle of the week, I was exhausted and not in the mood to eat breakfast for dinner, so we ordered pizza (which had enough leftovers for 2 nights).

My lesson . . .when you feel better, you do better. I felt like crap because I was working all day and all night, and not giving my body a chance to rejuvenate with exercise. When I felt like crap, I had NO DESIRE to eat healthy.

I had to keep reminding myself about how delicious paleo food is, which is one of the reasons why I've been so successful on this diet. I thought wanting to eat better would come naturally with getting back to the gym. It's been a slow process. Today I wanted to order pizza again. Reggie is a great partner and shared his struggle with turning down free corn dogs at work. I felt bad for being the weak link or the bad influence when I know he's trying so hard, too. So I made dinner . . . although I really didn't want to. And I made my favorite paleo meal, hoping it'd inspire me. But I don't feel very inspired.

I think I'm just exhausted and I'm hanging in there until the end of the school year. My injured shoulder is also keeping me back from achieving my fitness goals, which I find frustrating.

This week is going to be a lot of forcing myself to eat well, workout, and I'm just praying that the right combination of both will get me back on track.

Sorry that this isn't the inspirational, motivational blog post of paleo triumphs and fitness success. But I guess the bumps along the way are part of the journey- and it's only fair that they get to share in this blogpost as well.